There was a time when I associated your self-worth with your weight.
There was a time when we met the scale every single morning and I either “loved” you more if you weighed less or resented you if you weighed more.
There was a time where exercise felt like something I *had* to do to make you beautiful.
There was a time when I ate way too little and exercised way too often to keep you feeling light and seemingly bright…and there was a time when that caught up with us and we felt weak and dim.
There was a time when the eating too little led to eating way too much at times…making me feel like I had not even the least bit of control over you.
There was a time where how a man looked at you was more important than how I looked at you. There was a time where how others saw you was more important than how I saw you.
But you see, dear body, I’m not sorry. I’m not sorry because those times led us here.
To associating self-worth with the human being we are as a whole.
To not being able to remember the last time we stepped on a scale and having no desire to put new batteries in the dead one that sits on the bathroom floor because weight means nothing.
To moving in a way that feels good, rejuvenating, and brings us so, so much joy.
To fueling you intuitively with lots of plants, yes, but also a sweet treat that I whip up in the kitchen with a smile on my face when you ask for it.
To training myself not to feed your hard times with food, but rather with a walk around the neighborhood, a couch night with your other half, a phone call to family or a friend, painting, or time with your pup.
To caring about how I see you and feel you above all else.
Dear body, Tears are filling my eyes as I write this not because of the sorrows of where we’ve been, but because of the beauty of where we are and the excitement for where we’re going. Dear body, I love you…the real kind…the unconditional kind…the kind you deserve. Dear body, thank you.
I’m honored to be coaching others on all that this body has experienced. I hear you, I see you, and I’m here to help guide you if you need me. Sending so much love from my journey to yours.
In wholeness and with lots of love,